sorry

Andy, I'm sorry. I can't say this any other way. But I don't know what to do anymore. Don't worry about replying. Don't worry about anything.

I'll let you go now, okay?

It feels like we're through. Like we can't go back to the way things were. I wish I could ask you if I can hold your hand. I wish I could ask you if I could hold you. But I don't want to make things awkward. I don't want to scare you away anymore. And I don't want to make you uncomfortable. There's so much I wish I could do. And I regret having blowing up at you because now you're not the same. You don't see me anymore. Or at least, it feel like it.

I'm not your star anymore.
And I guess you're moving on already.

I'm not okay. And I'm trying to get over everything because it feels like I'm never going to have the same Andy see me as I am. I don't want to let you go. I don't want to stop our friendship. I don't want to be just another fleeting memory. But I want what's best for you.

It's only now that I realize that I like you. But it's too late right?

We just got through a bunch of drama, but here I am possibly creating more. I hate it, I honestly do. But what can I do? It's not the same. It'll never be the same. You don't like me anymore. Not like there's anything to like about me, but still.

Please. I'm tired of feeling depressed waiting for your call. I know you don't miss me. I know you don't miss talking to me. You could have any girl you want. And I'm not what you want anymore.

I don't want to let you go. I want to keep hoping. I want to keep trying. But it's a fleeting right? You may never see me as the Lynn you liked.

Here you are calling me. I don't know what to do.

-I couldn't send this. Because it hurt too much.